This was a post I drafted in March 2012. I no longer remember what prompted me to write it, but I am pretty sure the reason that I didn’t publish it was that I didn’t have the courage to, fearing that I will not make it.
On a separate point, there was a point of view in this then-draft that I now no longer agree with, which is about the quote on some people not having the privilege or choice to choose, to which I condemned then. I now recognise that it was spoken from a place of privilege itself, where I believed that everyone was like me and always had choices.
I had a feeling, or a plan. When the production I would be project managing ends and premieres successfully in 2014, I would quit everything I have been doing and learn surfing whilst working in a restaurant or cafe by the seaside. No more dance, no more emails, no more city life.
That’d be 2 years from now. I would have had the luxury (money) and courage to do so. It must be a right thing to do then.
I would. It was a feeling, a plan, or perhaps… A dream?
Back to reality. The production is not going to go ahead as planned, and I am not going to be a surfer girl. No more chasing waves, or chasing dreams.
Chasing dreams, reminded me of this video. [I lost the link]
A life with no regrets is not just made up of chasing dreams and dreams come true. A life with no regrets, perhaps just mean that appreciate your choices.
“We shouldn’t condemn them who don’t chase their dreams as not everyone has the choice or privilege to do so.”
No, they made a choice and it is clear. They chose to stick to what they prioritise – responsibilities, expectations, a person, a family.
Any reason doesn’t justify why I should not love Jenny Blake. Already flagged her latest three blog posts on my inbox, here is one that is simply refreshing, especially for a morning: Emilie Wapnick: Why You Should be a Quitter….and Wear the Title Proudly